Using Meadowsweet As A Guide What Is Needed To Achieve Balance
The Meadowsweet as a flower is one of my particular favourites, thus, it features in my Allies Of Nature range as one of the most pivotal essences of the year, aligned as it is with the Autumn Equinox.
When equal day and night are in existence it is perhaps obvious to be speaking about a flower whose quality is one of balance. When we enquire into the flower further we realise the true ramifications of this when we journey with such an ally.
For the Meadowsweet comes to assist us with what it is like to voyage with the guidance of the ego and that of the soul and to venture into both of these worlds with a heightened sense of awareness to the likely consequences of doing so.
This past September, connecting with the spirit of the Meadowsweet, I have been brought a great teaching as to what it is to be me and what I seemingly do subconsciously to become more inspired to reach my highest heights but also what I do to distract myself to plummet to my lowest lows.
On visiting two very inspirational personal development centres within the last month, Embercombe and The Hillyfield, I have encountered both the caterpillar within and that of the butterfly too, realising what it is to journey from one state of being to the other and then back again into a place of parity.
The Meadowsweet encourages us to remain in the centre of our being, at our fulcrum, whatever we encounter, happy or sad, but in reality this is less easy to do until we become hyper vigilant as to what our life purpose is and where we really need to focus our attention. Otherwise we can be seduced by activities and people that are perhaps not wholly right for us or have a significant influence over us.
Eight years ago now I did The Journey program at Embercombe, the organisation's flagship personal development offering. I found it tough. My deepest wounds and vulnerabilities were, I felt, quite harshly exposed at the time. The universe decided to bring me some quite potent medicine arrows that were difficult to deflect and recover from. Becoming acutely aware of my projections on to both the place and the people there brought me a fierce reality to face up to. It restricted my ability to communicate properly, be able to be my true self and to move on from.
Having had somewhat of a love affair with the organisation for the previous 5 years, I felt lost outside of the venue for a while. I had to find alternative routes to my wandering, and eventually this helped me to find the way towards the shamanic path itself. Four years of a comprehensive training then followed, before a year in becoming an accredited flower essence practitioner too, where again I had been further guided to connect with nature, but in a far gentler way than before.
I felt stronger as an individual as a result of both trainings. but I was still finding it hard to know a way back to Embercombe 100 or so months on from my departure.
The land however had other ideas for me, it had been calling me for at least one whole year prior to my re-engagement. It knew there had to be a way for me to return and ultimately heal myself of all what had gone before by way of an opportunity to back row on the same personal development program I had gone through myself in 2013.
On stepping back through the gates, onto this sacred land, my soul breathed a deep sigh of relief. I was touched so deeply by the people that had now accumulated upon this 50 acre rewilding site, as well as the flora and fauna that existed there that I been to have a feeling flood over me of exultation. My heart opened as much as it had ever done before and I wept tears of joy for a feeling of coming home to myself and truly belonging to a place and a clan. I was experiencing a profound butterfly way of being. I was suddenly living a dream and everything was working out perfectly for me seemingly. Surely this was the life that I was meant to be leading?
A week or so later the opportunity came up to frequent the Autumn Equinox Weekend at Embercombe again and similarly the spirits of the land seemed to just want to nurture me and caress me ever so softly, treating me to more of the same. I was encountering what is known in shamanic terms as a peak experience. Getting a glimpse of how life could be for me, but evidently wasn't at this moment in time.
Over the next week or so, I found myself in a dilemma to attend a further nature orientated course but this time in natural building skills run by The Hillyfield. This too had a throw back feel to a couple of community build weeks that I had attended at Embercombe similarly in 2013.
This was the third weekend on the bounce that I was seemingly looking to network with like minds around my life purpose in order to be able to talk about my own offering too, but I was in two minds whether to go and attend the course despite having stated a desire to visit The Hillyfield for a number of years as another potential venue for my own personal development work.
On touching down there I almost immediately realised that the vibe was not right for me. Whether it was me, or the land, or the nature of work I had volunteered myself for, I don't know what it was exactly. The people were all really lovely, some of whom that I had known for decades previously but for some reason or another I just couldn't fully engage with anyone and I spent most of the weekend pondering on whether to stay or go.
I had to spend a great deal of time on my own, by choice, chilling by the lake and spending time in the sauna. I didn't sleep well, even less than usual, and I didn't feel inclined to get up and do my Early Morning Medicine Activity, my tent was cold and the valley was wet and dank and there didn't really seem any where to go for me to gain any inspiration to kick start my energy again that wasn't electrically fenced off or full of cows.
I enjoyed the art of using the hawk and trowel again to administer clay plaster to the walls of this straw bale barn we working on, but it was hard toil, filthy muddy and dark indoors. It just wasn't me, despite how great the facilitators were. I didn't take any pictures, I never dropped an ounce of harmonised water, didn't promote myself, never did a thing I would ordinarily do, except possibly swim and sweat it out.
Quite frankly it depressed me, no fault at all of the organisation itself or the course, it was just me at that time and how I was experiencing the weekend. I found myself in an ego bubble and once more it left me on a downer for a period of ten days afterward. I could not initially understand what had happened to me to break my flow and for me to be experiencing a feeling as if I was walking through treacle again or setting concrete even. I had entered another real slow period of development which was proving difficult to shift.
That was until Meadowsweet made me understand what had occurred over the previous thirty days. In returning to Embercombe my soul had landed somewhere it felt right at home in as if my butterfly feet dropped out of the air and caressed the soft grasses of an eden pasture. This was a heightened experience for my soul and in hindsight perhaps somewhat ungrounded in my ordinary reality.
Also when going to The Hillyfield I had been attracted by a proposition that was in the region of what I wanted to do as a vocation but what I had signed up for was not in my zone genius. So, although I was headed in a similar direction to this organisation I was not doing ultimately what I want to be doing in life.
I am passionate about helping people gain a connection with nature and the spirits of the flora and fauna that exist all around us in the animals, plants and particularly flower that want to draw our attention towards them for the messages that they wish to impart in our direction and I can interpret that message and help people establish what their route forward is in life from that encounter.
I am not necessarily a practical man, I can turn my hand to natural building of course and love it to a degree too but it is not really connected to my purpose in life and this when I engage in such a course dedicated to this particular art I am somewhat struggling for the aligned connection and thus feel distracted away from my true essence and therefore begin to fell depressed about my situation.
In with scenarios, highest high and lowest low, Meadowsweet wants to bring us back to our centre helping us to realise the consequences of moving into a realm where we can experience a nirvana but where we aren't actually living in nirvana. It aims to help us come back to reality and be able to live in the everyday until nirvana is our everyday.
Oppositely it also aims to jolt us out of any negative downward spiral when we begin to realise that ego has led us into a situation that we have temporarily forgotten is not really what we want to be doing. In someway shape or form it keeps us small and not living as our expanded. more flighty self.
Thankfully Meadowsweet can quite soon bring us back to a place of parity and understanding should we be open enough for its teaching and learning. Thus, we are able to continue to step forward on a steady upward climb to our desired destination without too vehemently straying off course in either euphoric adulation or destructive negativity. It therefore helps us to get to our goal in life that much more quickly and assured.
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